Jul 2, 2012 - Thinking About Japan

I've known for a short while now that my boyfriend wants to take his younger sister to Japan for her high school graduation gift, just the two of them. When he first told me, I felt excluded. I eventually laid that sentiment to rest, because that's his time with his sister. They're close.

Recently, he's been revisiting our engagement, moving in together, and the rest of our lives. Just two weeks ago, he expressed his frustration over not knowing what to do. Financially he's at the point where he will be ready to move forward, but there are other things he also wants to do... and he's conflicted. I was upset, because, in my opinion, my importance is similar to that of a physical object.... again, after a day of feeling defeated, I let the sentiment go.

... until his Japan trip, those same sentiments came back. And, yes, it really sucks. 

I haven't quite wrapped my head around how I really feel, or how I want to deal with it....