I'm very good at this.
After a year, I'm still having a hard time letting my guard down. If I find myself threatened in any way, I see myself physically and emotionally distancing from him... if for a second I let my guard down, and try to reconnect, and this is met with perceived rejection... I pull away even further. And, a treacherous cycle ensues. This is especially hard because both he and I are extremely stubborn individuals, part of the draw we have to each other. Very similar individuals, and not at all intimidated by the other.
These last few days have been trying, maybe I'm building on the steam from our Anni-date, but I've really got to let it go.....
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