In writing my monologue yesterday, I am reminded again that I am very lucky to have what I have. I had always had this false impression of what being in a relationship was suppose to be like. I thought that every obstacle that I encounter had to be endured, even if I suffered. This is not to say that relationships do not come with their complications, but not all are meant to be endured.
I really struggled in my last relationship. And the worst part is that I was constantly told that all relationships were going to be the same. If I couldn't endure, I would never find one that would make me happy.
I can say now that my thinking was incorrect, for me, and I am and will forever be grateful for whatever made me realize this. I know that true happiness, true love is unconditional. It doesn't stop because you are angry. I know there are people out there who feel, or felt, the way that I did, and most will never come away from it the way that I did, and will settle with the false idea that they are truly happy. To those, I feel sorry, because they will never know what it really feels like.
Thank you, babe, for making me see and feel what I always thought would only be true in the storybooks.
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