I don't to make a statement about my lack of updates; however, it is good to note that since my fast, I had something of a fast food binge for a month or two straight. I started to reconcile those habits over my winter break from work. Working for the university system provides that sort of comfort, and it was much needed - after a quarter of classes, a lifestyle of unemployment to contract work at Genentech to move to a full time position much, much closer to home. Before I move onto more important goals in life for this year, and beyond, I want to reflect on the year past.
I started the year as an Associate at a financial services corporation, one where I truly believed in the ethics and morality of the company and its executives; however with the changing scope of the industry, as well as re-aligning the company with future goals, internal changes left me with a tough choice between moving to a new state to stay with the company, or to not move but at least a compensation package. You may have already guessed, I chose the latter. Looking back, it was the best decision I have made thus far. I had the pressures of a boyfriend about 100 miles away, plus the conversation about where the relationship would be going if I should decide to move - courtesy of a little birdie about choices I needed to make regarding my career. Ultimately having my boyfriend and my brother with me in the new location for a holiday weekend trip to Texas helped finalize my decision when I walked in the following Monday with my decision on a pre-drafted questionaire from Human Resources.
Since then, I have traveled to Vancouver, Canada, to the Midwest, and to Japan, all in a whim, all in a two month period. I had the opportunity to do the traveling, without taking time off, and I was being paid to do it... I saw the world, traveled alone, and had a great time doing it. You hear people say that they'd do it when they got the chance, but the thing is, chances don't just happen, you make them happen. If you wanted to do it, you create the opportunities to do them. When I came back, I realized, again, that my life's goal is to travel the world, to see the world, not just the monuments, or the things books tell you that you must visit. I want to see the world as the people see them - on a day to day basis. Of course, without money and security, I would not be able to do them, so here I am again, back to the grind, building what I hope will be the foundations for my next trip to the unknown.
For now, though, I want to set some goals for the new year - I want to lose all of this junk food weight that I had gained from my rather unsuccessful fasting period, of 1 week, and to gain a much more toned physique. My boyfriend once said that I should stop trying to compare myself with everyone else, all of my friends. To be honest, I don't try to do it, at all, it happens. I have it running in my head that these people were once much, much bigger than myself, and if they are able to lose weight to the point where their waist is much more trim than mine, then I, too, could do it, with some discipline. Without the constant reminders, from facebook, myspace and the like, really anything that updates me on their physical features, I would have no motivation to really get myself going. After binging on fast food for a month, getting out of bed, early in the morning, can be extremely exhausting, but with the motivation, I know that within a month's time, I'll be on my way to a bikini-ready bod. I know I can do it, I just need to stay focused.
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