I started reading it a little over a week ago, and since then I have not given myself much time to put it down. Outside of work, and sleep..., only on the bus ride home, or during dinner (great family values, right?).
I started to see a very different me, through that book, the "me" that I always knew existed, but was in one way or form put second to an accustomed mannerism.
Growing up with parents who had deeply integrated mindsets of how things should be, and how my life should follow the same path which they walked was frequent, common, and typical. Yet, from reading it, I realize that their mindset, as a result, affected, and influenced how I view, and deal with others, often not to anyone's advantage.
In recent events, mostly as a result of the readings, I'm ever more aware of my faults and misconceptions, and how my life to this point has negatively affected my formerly rosy view of everyone and everything. I've become, like my significant other claims, too involved in other peoples' lives, whether it was my business to know or to think, and I treat others' negatively as a result of those views.
The most difficult obstacle is mentally battling those conceptions and following a certain path of reaction(s). In my minds' eye, I see the multitude of options, and the challenging part is weighing the pros and cons of each reaction/action. Of course, the difficulty lies not in seeing, because that's already embedded in me, but in the decision I often make to follow the negative reaction path, and being aware of the ensuing consequences.
My challenge will be to see the options, and be able to make the decision for what is beneficial in the long term.
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