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Oh Jennifer, it's always good to talk to you, even if for a brief moment.
I don't really have plans, but as all plans go, they're coming along just dandy. Think back to the Will-Angela episode, and you've got me and Robert, last night, mostly me getting randomly emotional about things that were imagined. I'm not sure why I had the breakdown, but I did. It may have been the aggregate of everything the past couple of days, my uninviting a friend because he was naive enough to believe that inviting 3 of his other friends, 2 of whom I have never met, was okay, and then ending yesterday when my coworker, after my heated monologue about how the aforementioned had frustrated me, inadvertently extends an invitation to our mutual acquaintance. She who works for the client service team, who just so happens to be best friends with whom I traveled in China. I figure it may just be that I know them that she thought it was okay, but after all the flaring rage (that's not really the right word), I'd expect better of people, my coworker, alas, but was not the case.
I guess I'm just heated about everything, and work, in itself, I feel like I have no real mentor. I constantly battle things alone, and only in solitude do I truly reflect on the happenings of what we call "work". I think for the most part I enjoy work in a far greater extent than most people, which I presume is the very reason I'm so excited all the time, but I think it is this very quality, or well, attitude that yields to all the frustration... because I become so involved that I assume everyone takes it as seriously as I do, which I have learned in the previous months, is not usually the case, and in the years to come, a very rare one at that.
Anyway, hopefully the dinner is intimate and non-exhaustive, and seeing Robert over the weekend will hopefully restore some of this random insecurity I have about, well, nothing, at all. Only one more day, love, and then another two before I see you. Hopefully nothing comes up on the 10th, I cannot wait to see you!
Angela
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