Maybe I'm like every other GIRL out there...
For as long as I've been with my boyfriend, I have not complained, or even cared too much that he's constantly out with his friends, drinking and the like. And rarely do I care that I don't often hear from him on those nights, yesterday should not have been an exception; however, it hit me that for the last couple of days, I did not hear much from him. He lives about an hour's drive away from me, so I see him about once a week, if that, some weeks.
This didn't bother me, before.
It did last night. And it bothers me today, in a different manner though. One of my good guy friends, often, confided his relationship issues in me, and they usually revolved around his girlfriend getting mad about one thing or another, and it hit me that, it's likely that I'm behaving in the same manner that my guy friend's girlfriend behaves.
From a objective standpoint, it seems illogical to behave that way, but subjectively it seems I'm in the same boat, because ironically, the two of them are in the exact cities that my boyfriend and I are in. Eerie, no?
Anyhow, knowing what I know, and knowing the negative aspects of my being, I'm consciously telling myself I need to be a bigger person, and I need to be able to see the bigger picture... and as difficult as it seems, I'm proactively trying to change.
Me? Change? Scary, I know!
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